其实上周心底就酝酿着这样一篇文字，然而因种种原因在情绪最饱满的时候没有写。

    班里的一位同学，终于回家了。这是班上第二个退学的。

    其实他的命运似乎早已注定，裁决也似早就做出，反倒是拖延了这许久，令人有些讶异。然而他毕竟是走了，虽然这个现实大家心中早有准备，但当事情确然发生，心中仍难免一震。

    然而，我真的关心他的遭遇么？关心过么？做了两年的同学，竟回想不起一次对话的经历，我为自己的冷漠心寒。

    也许，面对每一个个案，我们都有理由说，是他自己心态不好，是他自己不够努力；我们也都可以理直气壮的说，我们不是没有劝过，而归根结底要看他自己的选择。是的，这个世界上，对于任何一个人，最终什么事都是要靠自己的，别人的关心与帮助，至多也就是起那么一点点推动作用，决定因素还是自身；然而，当身边的一个人，就那样沉沦下去，我们却无动于衷，至多在茶余饭后或者是宿舍夜话时谈资似的说起来，我们恐怕也多少是有些过错的。

    今天的班会，班主任说起了他，说起了业已过去的一些事情，我好像才对他有了些了解。班主任几分钟的话给我的信息，却大过两年的同学生活，这恐怕也再次道出了我的冷漠。大一没有摆正心态，大二遭遇电脑游戏，他的经历太像是大学入学心理辅导里的那些典型反面教材了――唯一不同的是，他是我相处了两年的同学，也曾经是这个班级的一分子。

    抬头看见书架上支着的班级合影，大二，军训，大三。大一的不知放到哪里去了。刻意地去寻找那个孤独的身影。原来他也是有这样温馨的笑容的。可是大三的那张照片里，已经没有了他。

    也许，他性格上的孤僻，他的沉默寡言，他的不善与人沟通，都在他的悲剧中扮演了太重太重的角色。然而正因为他的如此种种，或许我们当初才更应该多关心关心他，多跟他谈谈――性格是可以改变的，这我知道，我自己就是明证，我当初不也是一个极不爱说话的孩子么――然而我们真的关心过他么？我真的在意过他的境遇么？哪怕只是一点点？

    没有。

    其实我并不是在自责，抑或内疚。没有。自责也没有用，况且，我还是相信问题的本质在于他自身。人生就是一场马拉松，而如今这个社会，没有多少人会在跑的时候去帮助那些掉了队的――其实也根本没多少人会回头看一眼。

    我只是有一点点置疑，这个社会应该是这样的么。

   

    最近班里在排学生节话剧。题目叫做《与我们无关》。内容其实很像他的故事。这是一个很沉重的题材，编剧定下的主题基调偏于悲观，这可从这样一句结尾看出：“我们爱这个世界，但很多事情与我们无关。与我们无关。”我不喜欢本子的基调，不喜欢这种逃避主义和推卸责任似的冷漠――“与我们无关”，但我又不得不承认，现实大概就是这样。

    我扮演的是男三号，一个生活以学分积为核心的典型清华学生。或许讽刺的是，这样的学生身边有很多，可导演偏偏挑了一个不是这样的学生的我来演。我总觉得这个“我”有点虚伪，说“自己”在意，说“自己”关心，可总是以“自己”忙为借口――“我还得为我自己的前途，整天为那么一点学分积拼命”、“我不是不想关心大家，可我自己都已经疲于奔命了，我又怎么能够顾及别人？”

    剧里的三个主角，是三类人。我扮演的A是号称想关心但忙不过来没法关心，我刚刚已经说了，其实本质挺虚伪，只是自己没有意识到；C是一个在剧中经历了转变的人，从很想认真地帮助要退学的B到最后接受了现实（或者说屈从于现实）而放弃了努力；D则是一个言行和思想上都坚定认定这个世界就是这样残酷无情，能”管好自己就不错了”的人。

    其实现实中的我就如剧中人一般虚伪，觉得好像很在意别人的境遇，别人的感受，但又的的确确没有做出什么努力，更多的似在满足自己良心上的“需要”。也许就如C所说：“眼看着身边的人，一步一步，堕落，颓废，我们却什么也不做，劝几声，也不过是安慰自己，说自己不是没有关心过。可我们怎么能这样呢？我们怎么能这样呢？”

    前几天禁不住诱惑，查了10G的分，还可以。作文满分有点出乎意料，不过机考的时候的确信心+rp爆棚，当时也的确觉得是有戏冲击满分的，呵呵。

    至此，也该回顾、总结一下这次的考试经历了，对于看到本文的他人或许有些帮助，不过更主要的是为自己写，这一段经历实在难得，应好好记录。

    报名是6月的事了，当时只是觉得应该要考虑考G了，正好同学要报名，我于是便一块儿报了。报名早晚其实问题不是特别大，但是关键是此前从未接触过GRE的任何东西，而之后也没有好好准备，所以其实也是挺鲁莽的。

    机考选择的是8月13日，而7月我的日程安排的满满的。7月初去青海社会实践；中旬相继两个英语竞赛，其中一个是去哈尔滨参加夏令营，又担搁了不少时间。这一段时间也一点没有准备考试。

    从哈尔滨回来已经是25号了，有点着急了，因为当时连什么是Issue什么是Argument都搞不清楚。先把ETS的官方考试指导文件看了看，看了它的范文，觉得的确水平很高，但是格式上其实没有新东方那些人主张的那么严格（我没有上过新东方，所以这是很主观的凭一些印象的臆断）。之后也没怎么再看文章，什么北美280等等统统没怎么看过，直接开始写。第一篇Issue和第一篇Argument当然写得很费劲，主要是此前从未写过这么formal的东西。不过有赖以前基础比较好，时间上倒是一开始就能按时完成。

    作文阶段最有益的就是与人互改。一方面可以接触另一个人对同一个题目的不同的思考，另一方面别人的作文里的具体的语句和词汇上当然也会有所吸收。所以一定要找一个水平至少相当的人，否则学习的效果就差了。

    从7月底到8月13日的机考，基本上一天一篇Issue，Argument要写得少一点，大概是8月初以后一天一篇。这么算来总共也没有写过几篇作文。不过练过了10篇之后其实风格已经定型了，一些套话也都开始出来了，再写也没什么意义了，这个时候应该做的就是在内容上提炼提炼，让自己的观点更充实等。不过我当时没时间了，大家都很推崇的给每一篇文章列提纲我也没有做过――我历来写任何东西都没有打提纲的习惯，所以当时只是浏览了一下Issue的题库，觉得每篇都能有些想法就可以了，这也是时间不够的情况下的无奈了。

    机考当天早上我还看了点东西。主要是底气不足，当时Argument连题库都还没有看完。也许是那一阵子运气的确太好了，考试时的题目我刚好都准备过，Argument更是早上刚看过范文，因此思路上很顺，字数也就上去了，粗计Issue 600字，Argument 500字（考场上数行，呵呵）。时间也还好，有时间通读一遍改改病句，或换一些觉得用得不好的词。就这样考完了作文。

    我机考应该算是选的比较早的时间，按理说之后认真准备笔试时间是非常充裕的。不过之后因为各种原因一直拖拖拉拉的。考完作文开始背红宝，却一直断断续续的，到了快10月也才只认真背过不到10个list。期间又经历了感情上的波折，情绪上相当低落，不过也好，到了十一假期总算自己下定决心做了个了断，此后了无牵挂，可以安心准备考试了。这时也没有几天了。

    于是一天4个list地背。别人都在互相问红宝背到第几遍时，我第一遍还没有背完，压力可想而知。红宝背了差不多一半的时候开始天天做套真题。我做题比较快，而且同样有赖以前的基础，填空和阅读基本上一开始就没有什么问题，只是类比反义惨不忍睹，这当然是因为词汇没背好。记得第一次做完一套真题，一对答案，大概只有500分，当时心情非常差，也一下子就清醒了，知道最后这段时间不能再挥霍了。

    list背得多了一些之后，底气足了点，模考成绩也开始稳定在600+。红宝背完一遍之后，离考试还有一周时间。扔掉红宝开始做题。我手上没什么资料，红宝都是借宿舍同学的，只在电脑上下了一些真题。就做那些，大概是95－99的吧。成绩在600－680之间浮动。问题还是类反部分。这部分做得好，成绩就高。偶尔阅读也有失手的时候，会错5、6个，但通常都是2个以内。填空一直很稳定，没有什么大问题。

    最后一周除了做真题，就是针对性地把宋昊那本类/反做了，呵呵也是借同学的。所幸GRE类/反还是有一定重复性的，做多了单词和逻辑关系也就记住了，因为红宝实在是背得太差了。最后三天再看红宝，发现遗忘得非常多，有点心虚了，不过也没有时间了，随手翻了翻，能记多少是多少吧，能再背几个是几个吧。

    然后又把网上能找到的真题都做了做。最后基本只做填空和类反，阅读做起来太费时间，又不会有什么长进，所以就不管了。突击还是很有效果的。

    然后考试。比较幸运吧，反正卷子上生词不多，跟模考时的感觉差不多。反义做得不错，类比差一点。填空、阅读感觉没什么大问题。当时觉得600分的底线应该有了，最后也的确过了600分。

    如果说有什么教训，那就是单词一定要好好背。反义的一个词，careen，考前我还看到了，应该算是人品不错了，可惜没记住，这样错的很窝囊。红宝背多少遍都不算多。但是不能是死记硬背，最好能结合例句理解用法和词义。否则考试的时候它稍微变一下也许你就又不认识了。

    如果说有什么经验，那就是往年的真题要好好做。GRE毕竟是考试，而只要是考试就有应试方法，把真题都搞明白了就是最好的应试训练。这个和背单词是相辅相成的，你看看它单词是怎么考的，就有助于有针对性地去记忆。

    大概就这些吧。

    疯了。。。

    周中一直在准备下周礼仪赛的事情。。。

    周三还参加校园英语风采演讲大赛。。。稿子周三中午才写完，下午5点才改好，然后厚着脸皮就去比赛了。。。比赛的时候错误一堆一堆的，不过人品不错。。。奖品被哥们瓜分了。。。

    周五中午在紫荆门口发礼仪形象节的传单，大家好high啊，不停地roll call，全然不惧往来人群差异的目光。。。其中包括熟人装作不认识我们赶紧溜掉的。。。

    本周大小报告做了三次，倒也破了个人记录了，周五的一天两次更是单日记录了。。。看来我以后愈发不能逃bg了，何况ggss这丫头时常说些不合时宜的话。。。

    周末还要学生节二审，台词还没背好。。。

    作业一堆一堆的。。。

    又快要考试了。。。

    去睡觉。

为今天英语课准备的材料，在一个fans网站上当下来的，通读下来褒得比较厉害，文笔不够中立，不过无所谓了，反正俺也是Al的fans。。。加粗并加阴影的是我提醒自己要讲到的点。。。

Al Pacino: Movie Legend

Alfredo James Pacino–called "Sonny" by his friends and family–was born on April 25, 1940 to parents Salvatore and Rose Pacino, in East Harlem, New York City. His parents divorced when Al was two years old, and he and his mother went to live with her parents, the Gerards, in the South Bronx. Al’s relationship with his father was never a good one, and they rarely saw each other or spoke when he was a child; instead, his male role model was to become his grandfather James (who emigrated to the US from none other than Corleone, Sicily, if you can believe it), with whom Al became irrevocably close to. Pacino was raised in a comfortable, sheltered environment; they didn’t have much money, but they were still happy nonetheless.

When Al was a little boy and his mother came home from work, she would bring her son to the movies (usually every Saturday). Al soon became fascinated by them. He would spend hours reciting and acting out his favorite scenes, imitating his favorite actors. He particularly enjoyed mimicking dramatic deaths, and his favorite was to reinact the entire scene from The Lost Weekend where a drunken Ray Milland is having trouble finding his booze bottle. Al would perform it at most family gatherings and parties, and when his relatives struggled to keep in their uproarous giggles, the little boy would frown at them. "Why are you laughing!? The guy can’t find the bottle! It’s serious!"

"I remember, I would come home–this is interesting to think of it now–I’d come home [from the movies], I’d always make an entrance at night… And [when I made my entrance], usually it was a ‘dying’ entrance. I’d come in and ‘die’ all the way to the kitchen."

Pacino struggled as a child amongst his peers. He had many friends, but he was constantly being tormented and teased because of his height, obsession with acting, and countless other pointless things that made him different from other kids. He was also rather susceptible to injuries. While playing a game of cops and robbers with a pal, little Pacino ran straight into a barbed wire fence and caught his lip on some of the wire. Al had reinacted pain and horror so many times that his friend at first thought he was pulling his leg, but soon Al’s screams finally triggered the kid to run for help. The moment Mrs. Pacino saw her son dangling by the lip, she completely blacked out from nerves and shock.

Leading such a sheltered life made Pacino a confused kid, especially when living in the South Bronx, which is not exactly what one would call "Pleasantville." Al even told peers he was part of a street gang, that he was from Texas or that he had ten German Shepards that would eat men alive. He’d do anything to try and fit in; he even lost his virginity at age nine.

In spite of all this, Al’s thirst to act was hardly quenched enough to his content. He was always itching to be in the elementary school plays and usually ended up with lead roles, and his teachers soon took notice of the boy’s talent. They constantly urged his mother to put her son’s almost preternatural acting skills to good use. With that, Rose enrolled him into the prestigious High School for the Performing Arts in Manhattan.

Despite his obvious intelligence, Al was an underachiever in school and was constantly bored and unmotivated. He dropped out at age 17, hoping to begin a stage career. It didn’t come easy, however. He went through a long and severe period of depression, rejection after rejection. He was also arrested for carrying a concealed weapon, and sentenced to a hearty fine. He did, however, befriend famed actor Charles Laughton, which was a huge honor on Pacino’s part. Laughton could easily see that this kid had the spark that it takes to become a great actor.

Rose Pacino was intensely nervous by nature, and her son’s wild energy and recent bad luck began to wear off on her. She kept how serious in a state she was to herself, however, and when Al was twenty-two years old, she died suddenly. The impact it had on her child was unspeakable. He felt completely responsible for her death, and hated himself for his overhyped ambitions and reckless drive to be onstage. To make matters worse, his mentor and grandfather, James, passed away the next year. Al started to turn to drugs from time to time, but alcohol pretty much became his best friend. It would take years for Laughton and other pals to help Pacino get over his drinking habits.

Finally, his luck started to turn, when he got a break and was accepted into New York‘s prestigious Actors’ Studio when he was 26 years old. He studied with some of the best teachers in the business, most notably Lee Strasberg, who created the famously American form of acting: The Method. During this period, Al struggled namely bec
ause an actor of similar age, similar height, similar circumstances and similar appearance named Dustin Hoffman had a career that took off in 1967′s The Graduate. Pacino could not deny his jealousy, and people constantly coming up to him, seizing his shirt and demanding, "Are you Dustin Hoffman?", "You’re Dustin Hoffman, aren’t you?" and "Look, it’s Dustin! Dustin Hoffman!" only made it worse. He later reflected with a smile, "Maybe someone’s pulling his shirt now and saying, ‘You’re Al Pacino!’ "

His confidence restored after his valued training at the Studio, Al continued to audition for plays. When he was finally accepted to be part of the production "The Indian Wants the Bronx," something wholly unexpected happened: he won an Obie Award for his performance. Al soon became all the rage on the New York theatre scene; everybody wanted him. Soon, after being in countless shows, he won a Tony Award for his performance in "Does a Tiger Wear a Necktie?" and was beginning to get offers from film studios. Many people began to take notice of the man’s talent, including an young director named Francis Ford Coppola.

The Godfather was a bestselling novel written by Mario Puzo in the 1960s. It tells the story of an Italian family, the Corleones, and their tragic legacy as one of the great Mafia Families in fictional history. When director/screenwriter Francis Ford Coppola wanted to bring the epic novel to the screen, he collaborated with Puzo and wrote a screenplay. Marlon Brando was cast as the head of the family, Don Vito Corleone. James Caan was set to play the Don’s oldest son, Santino "Sonny" Corleone, John Cazale (who would go on to make several movies with Al) was to play the second-eldest brother, Fredo. Robert Duvall took on the role of The Don’s stepson and the Family consiglieri, Tom Hagen, and Coppola’s own sister, Talia Shire, was cast as the youngest Corleone child, Connie. All that was missing was an actor to play the story’s central and most haunting character: Michael Corleone.

Coppola had seen Al Pacino perform on stage and immediately became enamored with the young man’s talent. In the director’s head, Al was the man for Michael. Studio executives and producers, however, begged to differ. They wanted someone with huge star status to play the role; this was, after all, a big-budget production from Paramount Studios. Some of their ideal choices included James Caan (who, as previously mentioned, was later cast as Sonny, Michael’s brother), Martin Sheen, and even Robert Redford. But Coppola refused to budge. He contacted Al and had him come in and do a screen test with Diane Keaton, who was to play Michael’s future wife, Kay Adams. Luckily for Al, he and Diane were already close friends, so the chemistry was automatically perfect on-camera. Al did his best, and then hoped for it, too.

The executives at Paramount turned him down. Al was obviously hugely disappointed, but he told Coppola that perhaps he just wasn’t meant for the role, thanked him for giving him the chance, and went on his way. Coppola wasn’t finished, though. He would take Al and sneak him in for a screentest every chance he got; in the end, executives were in possession of (reportedly) nearly 100 tests with this actor nobody had ever heard of. Al was starting to get restless. "At the time, I told [Coppola], ‘I don’t respond well to being in situations where I’m not wanted,’" he recalled nearly thirty years later. It got to the point where he was being taunted and teased by the bigshots to his face, and Al had practically had enough. Coppola still reassured him that everything would be all right in the end, and at last, the executives gave the hesitant thumbs-up.

But things weren’t over then. Al was in constant fear of being fired on the set, since when Coppola wound send executives finished takes, they said that Al’s performance was too dull, too boring. But that all changed when Coppola coaxed them to watch a scene from the 1971 little-seen film The Panic in Needle Park (1971), Al’s first starring role in which he gives a gritty and unbelievable performance as a young heroin addict named Bobby. That 8-minute clip was all it took. They were left stunned. And it was set. Al Pacino, whom to Hollywood was just a thirtysomething nobody from the South Bronx, was to play Michael Corleone.

Needless to say, the film was a smash. Pacino’s performance had critics practically kissing the ground beneath his feet, and he earned an Academy Award nomination. Suddenly Al was thrust into a world which he was completely unfamiliar with: fame, fortune, glamour, pizzaz…he was finally one of those guys he had so admired as a little boy at the local cineplex.

"It’s a relative thing, fame. And it works on different people differently… And how it worked on me was…I…I started to–I didn’t talk the way I usually talk. And I realized people were receptive to me. And I hadn’t earned it. I had done nothing to earn their laughs, or their interest or anything. And it felt kinda cool to just sit there and not have to earn it. And I think that’s a trap you can fall into with fame. Because life is people, being with people, interchanging with people, that’s what life is. When you’re famous, sometimes, that part of you can get cut off. And I’ll tell you how. Because, you don’t employ the stuff that makes you what you are, because you don’t have to. And so, I fell victim to that a little bit. But I am aware of it."

After that, Al’s professional life took off. He earned three consecutive Oscar nominations for his roles in Serpico, The Godfather Part II (which was just as successful and brilliant as the first,} and Dog Day Afternoon. He refused to take roles simply for financial gain; instead he accepted parts that were powerful, meaningful, important; this helped establish him as a powerful new force amongst his peers.

Al was also involved in a serious romance between actress Jill Clayburgh for several years, but it faded when t
hey simply did not have time for each other anymore. Fortunately, the split was amicable. He also hooked up with future Author! Author! co-star Tuesday Weld, but that relationship didn’t last long.

There are, in every actor’s career, flops. They are unavoidable, and Al has certainly had his share of them. Bobby Deerfield (which did had an upside: he met beautiful actress Marthe Keller while the film was in production and they became an item within a matter of days), and Cruising to name a couple, but he got right back on top again in 1979′s …And Justice For All which earned him yet another Best Actor Oscar nomination, despite the film being panned by most critics. After a comedic movie called Author! Author! (which earned him a Golden Globe nomination), Al was offered a role in a 1983 film that would solidify his status as a screen legend.

Scarface tells the story of a "political refugee" from Cuba named Tony Montana, who goes to the US to escape the reign of Fidel Castro in 1980, and joins the massive Cuban crime wave (mostly present in Miami). Tony’s life is one of literally nothing to everything (with all that comes with it: cocaine, booze, women, and lots and lots of money), and then ultimately ends in tragic death. The film became a landmark for the street community and remains to be one of the biggest cult features of all time. Pacino’s performance is nothing short of amazing. Despite its critical panning, it’s now featured on many "Top Movies of the Twentieth Century" lists, and probably will be for years to come.

Filming Revolution in 1985 was most likely the toughest shoot in Pacino’s long list of credits; horrible weather conditions and numerous financial difficulties challenged the production, and Al was also diagnosed with a serious bout of pnemonia. He was also in a depressed state of mind, since his relationship with Marthe Keller had come to an end. It didn’t help matters when the film was released: it was labelled one of the worst movies to come out of the 1980s and declared an embarassment for all who were involved with it. Though he was still getting numerous offers from studios, Pacino fell into depression from the bad reviews of his previous film and went on a four-year hiatus from movies. He starred in a few plays but generally stayed out of the limelight. He had brief flings with actresses Carol Kane (his co-star from Dog Day Afternoon who played the teller who is phoned up by her husband during the heist), and Kathleen Quinlan.

In 1989, the world got quite a shock when Al made his comeback in Sea of Love, an erotic cop thriller. Suddenly he looked and sounded different; those four years had given birth to a lower, huskier voice that became a trademark for the actor and his eyes seemed darker, more piercing. And soon Al was completely back in the fold and better than ever, releasing hit after hit. He was nominated for an Oscar for his portrayal of comic-book villain Big Boy Caprice in Warren Beaty’s Dick Tracy (1990), and made his directorial debut in the never-released film, The Logical Stigmatic. He gave his third and final performance as Michael Corleone in The Godfather Part III. The movie was not as ingenious as the other two, but Al gave a strong performance and the movie was nominated for Best Picture at the 1990 Oscars. During the shoot, Al’s beloved grandmother Kate died, and he was accompanied by Diane Keaton at the funeral; Al and Diane, who were an on-off couple for many, many years, decided to finally call it quits near the end of Godfather III’s production. But, like many of Al’s broken relationships, they were and still remain to be very close friends. Next, he starred in Frankie & Johnny with his Scarface costar Michelle Pfieffer, a hilarious, bittersweet romantic comedy which earned him another Golden Globe nomination.

Al had another reason to celebrate during those years, however: a short (and now terminated) romance with acting teacher Jan Tarrant in the late 80′s gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Julie Marie, whom Pacino doted on incessantly. She was the apple of his eye. Al admitted that she completely changed his perspective on so many things in his life, and her birth made him feel like a wholler and happier person. To this day, Julie (now fourteen) is extremely close with her father, as it was apparent at the 2004 Golden Globe Awards.

Al’s fans (and some critics as well) were getting restless, however, because still, after exactly thirty years since his first Oscar nomination (and seven others), he didn’t have the prestigious Academy Award on his mantle. Al didn’t really seem to mind this, but in the year 1992 he gave two flawless performances, and he was nominated for both–and won for one. He played the slick, jerky salesman Ricky Roma in Glengarry Glenn Ross, an adaptation of the Pulitzer Prize-winning play, and a retired blind Lt. Colonel named Frank Slade in Scent of a Woman. He became one of the very few actors to be nominated for two performances in the same year, and at last he finally won for his role in Scent of a Woman. A very humbled Al announced with a smile, "You broke my [losing] streak." There was much dispute after the ceremony as to whether or not that particular performance was Al’s finest (I personally think he should have won for Dog Day Afternoon), but nevertheless it remains one of the most outstanding character portrayals in movie history.

He reunited with Scarface director Brian de Palma to play yet another Spanish-speaking gangster, this time in the 1993 movie Carlito’s Way. During this time, Al had been dating director/producer Lyndall Hobbs. However later on it was revealed that she was a rather demanding and controlling woman–not to mention overbearing–and it is rumored that Al had an affair with his attractive Carlito’s Way co-star Penelope Anne Miller. Pacino and Hobbs did not last, nor did he and Miller. He had a short role in 1995′s Two Bits, and then what seemed to be a gift from the action-flick gods was released: Heat, directed by Michael Mann had Pacino starring opposite Robert de Niro (who had played Al’s father in The Godfather Part II, however in that they had no screentime together). The movie was a smash, and after that came the mediocre political w:st="on" />drama City Hall co-starring John Cusack and Bridget Fonda.

Al tried his hand again at directing in the clever documentary Looking for Richard, which basically entails the story of Pacino trying to direct, star, and produce a production of Shakespeare’s Richard III. This time, he released the movie to the public and it was very well-received; he even won the Best Director award from the Director’s Guild of America.

In 1997, Al co-starred with Johnny Depp in the fantastic Mafia movie Donnie Brasco, then went on to play Satan himself in The Devil’s Advocate next to Keanu Reeves and Charlize Theron. In 1999, he reunited with director Michael Mann to make the excellent drama/thriller The Insider with Russel Crowe. The movie was highly praised and nominated for seven Academy Awards. Then Pacino worked with renowned director Oliver Stone in the epic football film Any Given Sunday, followed by yet another movie directed by and starring Pacino, Chinese Coffee.

Around this time, Al became romantically involved with actress Beverly D’Angelo, and things seemed to be going very smoothly between them. In 2001, D’Angelo gave birth to twins–Olivia and Anton (perhaps named after one of Pacino’s favorite playwrights, Anton Chekhov)–on January 25. Soon after, however, they decided to split, and a fierce custody battle ensued. Al claimed that Beverly was charging him money to see their children, while D’Angelo said that Al was abusing his custody rights and demanding to see the children more than he was allowed. The battle was long and exhausting, and the results were not disclosed to the public; however it is known that Pacino (grudgingly) had to move to LA so he could see the children three times a week. Al now rotates his schedule between New York–still his favorite place to be–and Los Angeles, so he can try and spend time with both Julie and the twins.

In 2002, he co-starred with Robin Williams and Hilary Swank in the tense and fascinating Insomnia, then made a comedic switch by playing a disgruntled director who creates a computerized diva in S1m0ne. He made a film called People I Know with Kim Basinger and then starred with Colin Farrel in the 2003 hit The Recruit as a corrupt CIA agent.

For old time’s sake, Al agreed to make a cameo in Scent of a Woman director Martin Brest’s film Gigli, starring Ben Affleck and Jennifer Lopez. And I don’t think it’s necessary to say how that movie turned out. Still, Pacino once again fascinated the globe when he took on the TV miniseries Angels in America, playing a slimy, homophobic hotshot lawyer struggling to deal with his own homosexuality whilst dying from AIDS. Al won both a Golden Globe and a SAG Award for his performance.

Up next, Al is starring in Shakespeare’s classic The Merchant of Venice as Shylock, with talented actor Jeremy Irons costarring as Antonio. The film is due for release in early 2005. Other upcoming movies include 88 Minutes, a psychological thriller directed by James Foley and Two for the Money, a picture about sports gambling co-starring Matthew Maconoughay and Renee Russo.

It’s been a long and difficult road for Pacino. He’s certainly had his share of ups, but there have been downs. He’s been a strong and courageous man, and an excellent receiver of both his fans and his fame: he takes it very much in stride and with courtesy. And it is, obviously, needless to say that he is and always will be one of the most talented actors of all time.

 

附表：Al Pacino奥斯卡获奖、提名情况

Year	Result	Award	Category/Recipient(s)
1993	Won	Oscar	Best Actor in a Leading Role for: Scent of a Woman (1992)
	Nominated	Oscar	Best Actor in a Supporting Role for: Glengarry Glen Ross (1992)
1991	Nominated	Oscar	Best Actor in a Supporting Role for: Dick Tracy (1990)
1980	Nominated	Oscar	Best Actor in a Leading Role for: …And Justice for All (1979)
1976	Nominated	Oscar	Best Actor in a Leading Role for: Dog Day Afternoon (1975)
1975	Nominated	Oscar	Best Actor in a Leading Role for: Godfather: Part II, The (1974)
1974	Nominated	Oscar	Best Actor in a Leading Role for: Serpico (1973)
1973	Nominated	Oscar	Best Actor in a Supporting Role for: Godfather, The (1972)

 

下周俺们协会活动多多，嗯，还是应该打个广告的。。。也欢迎大家到THAASIC版来灌水。。。

清华大学ASIC礼仪文化节

学生对外交流协会（ASIC）将在11.22-11.26举办一系列礼仪文化活动，
欢迎全校同学参与！

对于全程参与活动的同学，将颁发国际处的礼仪培训证书

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附：清华大学ASIC礼仪文化节活动日程：

11月22日（周一）18：45-21：00 伟伦楼北408
    礼仪形象节开幕式 & 管理沟通策略、演讲技巧讲座
    主讲：经管学院副教授 王桂琴 女士

11月23日（周二）11：30-13：30 十食堂小树林
    职场形象设计技巧（现场演示&护肤美容品免费分发）

11月24日（周三）18：30-21：30 国图音乐厅
    高校外交外事礼仪大赛 为清华代表队加油助威
    ASIC将组织观众前往，报名：asic.rockin@gmail.com

11月26日（周五）18：45-21：00 伟伦楼北508
    礼仪形象节闭幕式 & 外事礼仪讲座
    主讲：清华大学国际处副处长 陈红 女士
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    昨天进行了一次协会培训。题目“环球两小时II”，因为2003年曾做过一次类似的，四名同学上去介绍四个国家的风土人情。这次续集由全美女阵容上演。先是留美一年的whatakit jj讲述她在美国的交换生生活中所体会到的the United States of America；然后kok mm再度出击（上次向大家介绍了香港），介绍她在澳门的一月生活；然后可爱的韩国mm zhixiu热情地大谈韩国；最后lalilu mm大秀她在雅典奥运会做志愿者时的照片，其中尤以她和姚明、田亮&郭晶晶（她还非要站俩人中间）的合影出彩。

    As a side note，之后接待部部长majiayu做了校园外事接待的正式培训。虽然说我以后再做校园接待工作的可能性不大了（好歹我也是三朝元老了呵呵，况且的确平时太忙），不过下发的这份文件还是很有研究价值的。

    培训结束后，依照惯例出去腐败。火锅吃得正爽，又被ct的电话叫走，毕竟是kbk生日。11点多在大街上和ct漫无目的地逛了许久，才找到组织。而最后大家依旧没能免俗地来到北大西门挤翅。

    不过今天的主要目的是喝酒。我素不喜喝啤酒，只是陪大家喝。其实大家喝得也不如何多，7个人才喝了17瓶。9sun喝醉了，样子很有趣。cc也醉了，还在耍小聪明，以茶代酒，可惜热茶的呼呼热气轻易地揭了他的底。有些话有些伤感，譬如kbk说明年或许我们就没什么机会这样喝酒了，以后当然就更没有了。

    的确。明年大四，将是大家各奔前程的一年。我们这众兄弟，也注定要散伙了，毕竟大家要走的路太不相同。有些遗憾，原来快乐确然从来都不长久的，当我们各奔东西，兄弟情义是否也只会是一句空言和记忆里的几个片断？

    算了，夜已深，不去想它。或许我的确应该醉一次，故作清醒，于我并没有什么好处。（注：凌晨3点想发此文，当时blog当了，只好现在发。）

    今天意识到又做错了一件事，再次伤害了一个人。然而不想补救。自我安慰地说或许我的冷漠和残酷未尝不是件好事，于那个人。但君是个固执的人，比我还固执。这事没有完，那个人想必很不爽。其实我也很不爽，我不喜欢被人勉强。

    于是换位思考，前一阵我在勉强她的时候，她想来也是很不舒服的。幸而我最后没有固执下去。也幸而我把想说的话，该说的话都讲了，心里再无半点眷恋，能够一身轻松地重新开始自己的生活。

    又于是，想起了很多人，想起了自己的很多话。那些该说的，想说的，没说的，抑或说错的话。人真是脆弱的动物，一句话就可以造成极大的伤害；人又真是健忘的动物，一句话就可以释去那么多的不快和怨恨。人又是可悲的，因为我们太多时候说的话，都是错的；或者，我们在不应沉默的时候，选择了无言。

    小学一年级。一个与我不是很熟的男生，不知因何缘由得罪了我。我想惩罚他，叫几个死党摁住了他。他被摁到在地上不能动弹，我却有些下不来台，因为我并不知道我想做什么。然而不能在死党面前示弱。我于是上去给了他一拳，打在了他的腹部。那是记忆里我第一次有意去伤害一个人，我至今都不能忘记我看到他脸上的痛苦时心里立即升起的翻江倒海的悔意。然而我没有道歉。他哭了，一定很痛，上课的时候脸上依然挂着泪珠。老师上课问他怎么了，他却什么都没有说。我还可记起他那时的眼神。

    后来离去。再后来，小学六年级，曾短暂地回过那个地方，他还很热情地把我拉到他家里玩。玩冰，他拿了把刀当工具。我当时幼稚而认真地以为他要报复我，因为打他那一拳我始终记得，我一直想他也不可能忘记。当然那天什么事都没有发生。我还是没有道歉。因为我的面子？因为事情太过久远，而无从开口？不知道。我带着愧意离开了他家。

    再后来，长大了些之后，明白了这点小事，别人当不会记住那么久，或者说，过了那么久还会在意；我是于心有愧，因而才会在记忆里留下了那个瞬间。那件事告诉我，再也不要去伤害任何一个人；然而也告诉我，那些该说的话，想说的话，有时我却就是说不出来，成了没说的话。

    有话想说，然而未说，这只是一种情形。还有不知该说些什么，却觉得有话想说的。往往最终还是沉默。或许有些故事，就只应有开端，而发展、高潮、结局都是些不相干的元素。事后或许会有些淡淡的遗憾，倘若我当时说了些什么，我现在的生活会不会很不同？……因为我的无言，一些人，从身边远去；因为我的无言，一些快乐，从手中溜走。

    然而这种遗憾，与那些说了不该说的话带来的遗憾相比，当可算不得什么。白羊本就是太过冲动的星座，我也不能免俗，很多时候像个典型白羊一样，会于一时的冲动而说出一些话。有时固然是在遵循自己的原则，譬如说，觉得值得拥有的，都至少努力争取过；然而说那些话的后果，或许我也该想想清楚。说过了之后，真的可以不在乎吗？真的可以像什么都没有发生一样吗？……

    还有那些的的确确说错的话。伤人的话。我真的，真的，一直不想伤害那个人。可是却一而再地伤害。我们都有错。我们都太固执。我很早以前就选择了冷漠，当作处理问题的方式，希望可以筑起围墙，将那个人赶走；然而那人却是那般的顽固不化。于是我可以对其说一些我决然对其他任何人都说不出口的极无情的话。我知道我的话很伤人，我的做法很伤人。可我不愿改。一个我不想有任何发展的故事，我采取了最无情的写法。

    原来我也这般无情。这般自私。明知道在伤害别人，却依然去做。我当然也可以说，有些事情就是这样子，那人当自爱些，若自爱便不会如此。人若自爱为何会反复地让别人伤害自己呢？然而即便这话有几分道理，我也不能推脱自己的过错――

    因为那些该说的、想说的、没说的，和说错的话。

    刚刚过去的这一天，好累啊，不过也好像很久没有这么充实了。

    早上又不知睡到几点，起来赶紧继续忙面试的事，通知选手。浑浑噩噩就到了中午了，也总算通知到所有人了，赶紧去打印材料。

    1:30到面试地点。仓卒准备。2:00开始面试，一组三到四人，25分钟。这次采取了有点新颖的团队面试形式，挺有趣，要求被面试者在十分钟内以一个团队来处理一个问题，自己协商分工，即要把问题解决，又暗含着要每个人尽量突出自己（毕竟是面试嘛！），还是挺有难度的呵呵。不过也算是给明年三月的协会招新开辟了新思路哦。嘿嘿有点迫不及待想招新了。

    下午场的面试到快5点，总算收工。累当然累，不过真的见识了一些清华美女，嗯。

    赶紧去吃饭。吃完饭随便找了个教室看了会儿书，就快七点了，又赶紧去参加aiesec的面试，只不过这次我是被面的。其实报aiesec项目有点欠考虑，恐怕明年也没有什么时间可以去做traineeship，不过既然已经报了，而且得了面试机会，就跟人家聊两句嘛，何况上周末的LC simulation还是挺有意思的。不过面试的时候也傻乎乎的直说了恐怕没有时间。

    之后又赶紧找了个教室写点作业看点书。九点再去面试现场，晚上最后一场刚好结束。做善后工作。今天的二轮面试实在不能参加了，也有点可惜，没有机会和美女们进一步面对面交流。不过明天考试要紧。嗯，继续看书～